Dear Diary: Would You Accept Your Half Sibling(s)?

There was a faint memory of my "illegitimate" brother in my mind. That was when I was still about 3 or 4 years old, a lady along the road in front of our house (My old grandfather's house) and carrying with her in her arms a child. It was still in my memory because my mother was crying and swearing and yelling at her. That was I can just remember that day because I was so very young at that time.

The purpose of the woman was asking about my father who was abroad at that time working. So I can really understand why my mother was so upset and angry. Then years after when I was looking around at my mother's kept documents in her attache case, my old school bag, I saw this handwritten testament of that lady I saw along the road stating that she will basically never bother us again.

Then at around the year 1998-99 came to us this boy who is asking about my father. We thought that he was alone but it turned out that he was with his mother who asked the assistance of our relative a few houses from us. So his mother remained there while letting my half-brother to look for maybe our hose where we live. His mother there really kept her promise not to bother us anymore.

Now we learned that he was just trying to see what his father looks like. So my mother showed him our photos his half siblings, she also told him that if he wanted to stay here he can but she doesn't want him to do vices. All along my mother was only the one talking. I never saw my father talked and I believe that he was incapable in dealing in such situations, he didn't even embraced him.

So my half-brother maybe sensed that my father was cold for him. Then after a while he left and we actually waited for him to return but he never did. His mother could have given him to us when he was little or at least visit at times, anyway he was our half-sibling anyway.

But being away for so long made him just like a stranger to us so it is not good to make him stay and make all of us adjust with a consideration that my family just cannot take him in because of our economic situation. So it is just the story regarding my half-sibling being lost out there fatherless and it makes me sad to think about what happened but it is part of life.