Hi guys ❤️,
So these are the days when I'm really emotional , but really trying my level best to trust God. So this topic is something which I can actually work with. So here I go.
As I thought about what food to bring to the table ,
my mind really wandered,
It wandered so far away ,
that I didn't know what to think anymore,
My life wasn't perfect ,
but I never complained.
But now , everything was falling apart,
There was a high chance for us loosing our house,
There was bad stuff happening,
But all I could think was to praise God,
To praise him for Jesus ,
It wasn't easy on God to sent his son ,
Sent his son to this Earth,
To save us ,
But he did it anyway ,
For us ,
For me ,
That's why I praised god,
That's why , when my heart aches for my family ,
And through all the health problems and financial troubles ,
I thought ,
It's all gonna work out.
But then ,
I literally finished all the money that my dad gave in February,
When I went home ,
And I couldn't ask for more ,
Because of all the situation we are in,
I had to be more understanding ,
So I said , no dad , I do have money,
But deep inside I was thinking,
How am I going to eat ,
How am I going to survive?.
You know , I'm really not like others ,
I can't not eat ,
I have fainted before ,
Hahaha this is even funny,
I have fainted even in Bangkok and even china,
Yeah , that's for another story ,
But you get what I'm saying ryt,
So I was scared ,
But then my friend let me borrow some money ,
I believe that God sent her to me ,
I have no idea what I'm going to do ,
Once that finishes ,
But I'm not losing my hope ,
I'm in a lot of pain ,
But my Jesus took all of it ,
And more for me .