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Blue is an ambiguous term that has multiple meanings.
Blue is a color.
Blue is a mood.
There are dark shades of blue.
There are light shades of blue.
That applies to both the color OR the mood.
So what does Blue mean to me?
Blue has been an unquantifiable state of being for over 25 years. For me, blue is definitely a mood. I suffer from clinical depression and have been on medication for over 10 years now. Since high school, I’ve had these things I call “brain clouds” (Joe vs The Volcano reference). It’s this feeling of guilt or loss that just hovers over me like a rain cloud.
Ace an exam? The cloud does not leave.
Promotion at a job? The cloud remains.
Death in a family? The cloud grows bigger with lightning.
Some people wallow in their depression. Society tends to give the term a bad rap. It’s considered taboo in America to “be depressed” and that somehow it’s a choice.
So here’s the news flash :
There are two types of depression :
Situational and Clinical.
Situational Depression - This is a type of depression that happens because you gambled your money away at the casino, your significant other left you, someone died, etc. In other words, situational depression is dictated by choices either in your control or out of your control. These are societal factors that contribute to it.
Clinical Depression (which I have) is physiological. In my case, my brain does not produce enough of a chemical called “serotonin”. I eat broccoli and other foods that might trigger more serotonin to be released, but these are the cards I’ve been dealt. I’ll be on medication to regulate those levels until I die (again).
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