I will be expecting in a few days after my doctor had seen the result of my intact PTH result that she will make me take a higher dose of what I am using for my hyperparathyroidism. It is not that simple for reasons such as the cost of my medicine because it is a not an ordinary medicine and in fact I am just the only one using it in my province. It is too damn expensive and if I will agree to double my dose it will really cost a ridiculously amounts of money to sustain it.
Some patients that had taken it just surrendered because of its nauseating side-effects. I had made a simple experiment yesterday after my dialysis and after my my blood was cleaned I didn't take my night dose. In the morning I was feeling much okay with my appetite and had eaten much better but this morning after taking it the nauseating side-effects are just beginning again.
So if I were to agree and take a much higher dose I will feel spent in both money and my physical energy and we-being. It may not be worth it because the therapy will defeat the reason to make me well but it will both not make me feel well surely and that is the dilemma I am facing now.
Probably over the years my parathyroid just had developed a good blood supply because of its hyperactivity so my medicine although is working but it is not enough to fully control my parathyroid. I really do not know what to do now as my choices are either limited or I have no choice at all. This is such a life that I have to face so that I could survive it. Now I envy people who just have a normal health and when they laugh I just can't bear to realize that I can't laugh like them.