It is just makes me mad that my nurses had changed the size of my dialyzer. It is an issue for me since the bigger size makes me well better than the small one and I can feel the difference. A smaller one of course will not do much cleaning than the bigger one and does not take much toxins and phosphorus.
That is why I feel that my body just gets filled with urea because the dialysis is not cleaning my system enough. The frequent blood pressure crash had made it like that, they slowed the blood pump down and changed the size of my dialysizer.
Now my nurses won't even change my dry weight and doesn't care anymore if my BP is very high as they got immuned to that already and their only concern is that my should not crash so that they won't do extra work because I am certain that it annoys them so basically I just get the minimum amount of dialysis in return.
The situation will make it hard for me to control my phosphorus and parathyroid so life gets harder when my nurses don't want to hear my plead anymore. I hope that God would move their hearts for me and not only to those patients at the dialysis that are their favorites because of the favors they receive from them.