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Can you always be happy in this little life?

My username is @sadiaafreen, From - Bangladesh.

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A lot happens in this short life. This little life is a mix of good and bad. Life is spent with the good and bad of life. But, there are some events that remain etched in the mind for a lifetime. Which always nestles in the chest and burns the mind. A long breath is created in the chest for each moment. Which has to be carried throughout life.

SEC-S10W4: ''A terrible day of my life''.

After the scorching heat, by the grace of Allah, the rainy season is going on now. And in this extraordinary time, there is an extraordinary competition going on. This time @steem4bangladesh has organized another amazing competition for all of us. In my opinion, this time the subject matter is completely different.

The topic is, SEC-S10W4: '' A terrible day of my life''.

What was the terrible day of your life? What happened to you that day?

The scariest day of my life was on July 21, 2019. On that day I lost my first child, Babai. I went to the hospital on the night of July 20. While going to the hospital, I thought that everything was fine this morning. I was looking at the rain lily flowers with my hands and with my hands on my stomach I was saying to my Babai, "You know, Babai! The flowers are very beautiful."

Rain Lily

Operated on 21 July. But I was not informed about Babai's departure. 😭😭😭 Even before going to OT, I knew that my Babai, my child was healthy in my womb. But I was high risk. For which I was not informed. I was shifted to ICU for an operation after regaining consciousness. I haven't been told yet. I was repeatedly asking everyone about it.

_{When I was admitted to the Hospital.}

But, not everyone could look me in the eye and talk. The whole day I was in the hospital, everyone told me that my father was in the NICU. I used to cry a lot to meet. But everyone told me that you are in the ICU. Can't go now. Everyone lied to save me. On the 5th day of my surgery, no one can stop me when I go home from the hospital. No one could tell. Later the doctor told me on the phone that my baby “Babai” is no more in this world.

_{My close friend Nadia was laughing at me saying different things, then I didn't know that my father was no more.}

Seeing my tears that day, doctors, nurses, and working aunts also cried in the hospital. This is the biggest horror of my life.

_{After the operation, I lost 10 kg weight in a month when I came home. I was given saline at home for my high sickness.}

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_{Memories of some things I bought for Babai during my pregnancy, and the towel that Babai was wrapped in.}

I went through a lot of hard times and depression. which cannot be expressed in words. It was not an easy thing to accept that the one whom I had carried in my womb for 10 months, was suddenly not being in my womb or anywhere around.

Have similar terrible events happened repeatedly in your life? How do you keep yourself away from it if it happens? And do you still shudder when you remember that terrible day

No. Allah saved me before this same terrible incident happened in my life, Alhamdulillah. During my second pregnancy, my doctor was constantly aware of all my treatments. He always inquired about me and took care of what action would be better at any time.

_{My second child is Anisha Mamuni, who quenched my thirst for motherhood.}

When I was 8 and a half months pregnant, my doctor told me to go to the hospital as soon as I noticed a problem. Without taking any risks, I packed my bag and went to the hospital with my mother and brother. I and my God know how much fear and doubt were in my mind while going. 😔 Then Allah blessed me with a beautiful baby girl, Alhamdulillah. And she is my princess Anisha Mamuni. 😋

Yes! Of course, my chest trembles when I think of that. I ache and get sick when I remember those days and times.

What lessons have you learned from that terrible event in your life and what do you want to tell others about it?

I don't know what I learned from that terrible event in my life and what I should or should say to others about it. But I will say that, What I have learned from this terrible incident in my life is that in case of complications during pregnancy, one should seek a second opinion without delay from another doctor. For others, I would like to say one thing. In any case, you should cool your head and think for some time and take a final decision with a second opinion.

Give lots of love and care to your child.

_{Sitting with the laptop and typing, the hand stopped.}

Friends I was having a lot of mental problems preparing this article. I was sitting in front of my laptop crying. That day of suffering is old but the wound is fresh now. Which makes me cry every moment. Reminds again and again how hard it is for a mother to lose a child. I cannot explain how I passed that time. I realized how to die in every moment.

I pray that such a difficult and terrible day does not come into the life of anyone and does not come into the life of any mother.

I want to invite my 3 active Steemit friends. They are @jollymonoara, @fatemamarketing, and @tasrin94.

Ending here today my Steemian friends. Thanks again to our dear @steem4bangladesh and all of you very much for reading my simple article my dear friends and for always supporting me, Alhamdulillah.

Regards,

@sadiaafreen