I know that my higher purpose has nothing to do with work but at the same time one has to survive. So how do you balance what you're meant to do and what you have to do.
I have many different sides to my life and personality. I can be an over achiever and a perfectionist, but I have also learnt the hard way to be in touch with myself and the universe and live for peace rather than success.
On the way home from set, totally exhausted and already planning the next day, I realised that I've slipped back into the side of me that can push myself to the limits, work ridiculous hours and get shit done, no matter what.
A part of me enjoys the pressure of a challenge but I also know I push myself far too hard and it's not good for me.
Balance is something I've always struggled with, I'm a bit of an all or nothing kind of person so it's not like I get up and meditate or do a yoga practise before I throw myself into a pressurising situation.
One of the reasons I left the property world was that I realised just because you're good at something doesn't mean you should be doing it.
But at the same time, it feels great to do well. I'm good at this production thing, like I was good at property project management, but both are highly stressful and I need to work out what's more important, the satisfaction of pushing yourself to your limits and succeeding or consistent, peaceful balance. There's no question really, I guess I just get caught up and forget sometimes.
Right now I just need to get through the last few days on set but I'm going to ask the angels for help on this one, it's something I seriously need to figure out in order to live the life I dream of.
Love,
Daisy xx
( @daisyd )
P.S - 100 days in already!!!!! I hope you're making every one count! <3