I'm just sharing this again - to tell anyone that may be feeling down to reach out, it may feel like nobody cares, but we do! I've had my own battles with Suicide attempt - at the age of 12 I wanted so badly to end my life, i had nobody to talk to either, so I know how heavy that dark cloud is that you think will never disappear, you're certain things will never get better. But baby, they sure will! - I'm just lucky I was too young and dumb to figure how to use a razor properly.
Suicide fucking sucks..not for you but FOR THE PEOPLE LEFT BEHIND -
Sure your pain is gone once you're gone, but man, that pain gets passed on to everyone that loved you
TIMES A MILLION!!!! :( :( :(
Almost a year ago I lost my cousin to suicide, growing up we were close, but in his last 5 years of his life we hardly spoke, I thought about him all the time and kept meaning to text him, meaning to do this and meaning to do that, I'm still not quite sure why I didn't. I guess at the time I had my own issues of becoming a solo Mother and being exhausted. Of course I wish i had of sent that text or called in, the GUILT is real. I knew he had anxiety so I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable, but you know, uncomfortable is far better than dead right? I now give ZERO SHITS if I'm going to make someone feel uncomfortable and out of their comfort zone, It might of only taken a conversation from somebody that loved him or cared to set his mind straight - or maybe not, who know's
I can finally speak
It's taken me a year to be able to record this. I've had it written for a while but I think now is an OK time to share this personal thing. Thanks in advance for listening to the end
And remember
"Before you diagnose yourself with depression, make sure you're not in fact just surrounded by assholes" :D
On a serious note, assholes make life really assholey so avoid them. No but really - Life is a beautiful struggle and I hope we can all conquer it together
Peace, Love, Unity
Thank you for listening