My path to magic

How do i explain this. Well i have always been drawn to the occult/spiritual path have many book and tarot cards too. So i decided to ask the tarot card a question (many people do not believe in the power of the tarot) i do 110%. So a question was ask to the tarot how far can i go on my spiritual path? I shuffeled the pack of cards several time i mean several time and dealt the first card. Fuck my rigid with a barge pole unbelievable really this was the first card out of the deck .