Little Truthful One

Original Song by @daily-musings

Oh little truthful one
You're caught up in a lie
Saying that it's dark
When I see sunlight outside

Oh little truthful one
You know you can smile
But the corners of your mouth
Are turned down at the sides

Could you try?
Would it kill you to try?
Could you smile?
Would it kill you to smile?

Oh little truthful one
Get out of your head
Telling me that your tired
When I know you you spent the whole day in bed
Mhmm

Could you try?
Would it kill you to try?
Could you try?
Would it kill you to try?

I'll be there soon
Is there anything you'd like to do?
I'll be there soon
Could you tell me what you're going through?

Could you try?
You don't have to close your eyes
Could you try?
I swear it's not always night

Oh little truthful one
You're caught up in a lie

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This song is about coping with the depression of someone close to me. They usually are the person I look to for honesty and guidance, but their reality has been distorted for several months now. Their light has been dimmed, at least for the time being, and it's heartbreaking.

I always try to see the silver linings. I try to frame the experience as an exercise in patience and empathy. I try not to ask for too much progress, but still offer encouragement and resources. I try, I try, I try. And as hard as I try to be supportive, I'm an imperfect human and sometimes sadness turns into anger. Sometimes expectations turn into resentments. Sometimes love turns into pain.

My heart goes out to anyone dealing with mental illness or depression. I know there is no 'snapping out of it,' but please, for the sake of those that love you, try to take little steps forward. Talk to a therapist. Practice self-care. Take a bubble bath. Talk to people that love you. Get out of the house. Walk in the garden barefoot with the sun on your face. You are worthy of joy. You are full of divine grace. Your path is winding, but it has never been wrong. I'm rooting for you.