Songs are distilled slices of the human experience. Moments in time. This isn’t how I always feel, just a passing uncertainty I’m a little too familiar with.
I turn to writing and music to keep energy and emotion moving, so it doesn’t get stuck. I have all kinds of thoughts and feelings, some of which are pretty awful. Pretty sure that’s normal for any human.
Words help. I find I can step back from the intensity of life if I have a way to process it. Music is literal vibration. Singing gives voice to words I would otherwise hold back.
This is a sad, lonely song, but those emotions are part of being human. So here they are, captured in a tune.
Time to Fade — Original music by Katrina Ariel
I think it’s time to fade
All I can do is wait
Dilute the brilliance like watercolour
Accept my humble fate
It’s not like I’m alone
So many lonely in this world
Go nurse my needy heart with words
Toughen up, little girl
It’s hard not to get bitter, when the wanting doesn’t quit
Train my thoughts away from you—more pain than I’ll admit
But you don’t have time for me
And it’s harder to believe
That you ever will…
Toughen up, little girl
Maybe passion’s overrated, all that ecstasy and thrill
It chokes on life’s obligations, drowns in work and bills
The spark that started strong, starts to limp along
Everything gets business-like, but it always happens, that’s just life
Yeah I think it’s time to fade
Not so good at waiting
But what choice do I have
Better accept my fate
It’s not like it’s your fault
You work till you hit a wall
Suppose it’s on me for falling
Should’ve known better when love came calling
It’s hard not to get bitter, when the wanting doesn’t quit
Train my thoughts away from you—more pain than I’ll admit
You don’t have time for me
And it’s harder to believe
That you ever will…
Toughen up, little girl
So many lonely hearts
Gotta look after each other
Yeah, I see you sister
You know I see you brother
I think it’s time to fade
Into the patterns of my days
But I keep looking to the sky above
Hoping to survive this love
This song has some tough love in it, some bittersweet reality checks. Maybe some pessimism? I’m generally an optimist, but sometimes I get down.
Tried to keep the music upbeat, at least, so the thing as a whole isn’t too depressing. I actually really like the guitar part. Gets in my head. ;)
Thanks so much for listening! Big thank you to everyone who participates in open mic, and to all the sponsors and judges.
Whatever happens, keep singing your song!
Peace. @katrina-ariel
Author bio: Katrina Ariel is an old-soul rebel, musician, tree-hugging yogini, and mama bear to twins. Author of Yoga for Dragon Riders (non-fiction) and Wild Horse Heart (romance), she's another free-spirit swimming in the ocean of Steem.
dragon art: Liiga Smilshkalne
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