I am taking my strength from my spiritualism, it makes me hope for another thing far from the conveniences of this world because from what I am longing for is the best a soul can get which is paradise. In paradise there are no more crying, no more death you and your loved ones can be with each other perpetually, no pain, fear, sufferings, and all that negative emotions.
Those are the things that I wanted after leaving this world because I haven't had any much with me hear except the love and care of my parents and siblings and also from friends from distant places which makes me fortunate. But I know that nothing is permanent in this world because everything has an end and it gives me the fear of having to lose the ones that care for me.
But my spirituality gives me some assurance and hope from the passages and the text from the bible being taught by my minister and it is good that my sect has a program to bring the copy of the week's happenings, the bible study along with the worship service dvd's that is brought in by the church worker assigned for me and the weekly thanksgiving viewing and with those I could here my minister deliver the word of God from my home.