Late autumn London bleak as a lost empire dream, I walk in the cold leaves full of dry streets, began to know the sun in this foreign land is how its expansive.
I often often in this cold bitter street dragging the time, it is not willing to face the often have a cockroach and mice come and go of the humble leasing of the rental, so that my life looks so much gas Come, so hate the world. Ya is not around, I sleep all night all night, the night as the rest of his life so long, so no way to kill.
When I was young, I felt like a hawk in a cage, and only one day, bite the chain, straight into the sky, and later discovered that I was jumping from one chicken coop to another, and still surviving the chicks.
After the fall of London dusk is very short, the moment is dark. After the night to see this busy city, but also another scene, like a hurry into the shaking of the glass, the lights dim, such as Geshi, worry about worry about some injuries. Ya is often in the charming night wearing a gray coat in London into the gay bar, drinking spirits, pretending to have their own unspeakable deep past, in fact only I know how much she is less, but there are always Western women approached her, she used their own efforts to practice the British accent English chic deal.
When I first came to London, we were inseparable, and I liked the character of her love, accompanied her to go to the bar, and I saw that she had suppressed the excitement of wanting to be carnival with every woman who was close to her. And I am in the side, embarrassed smile, because of alcohol allergy, I drink Coke every time, until the elegant light can only be forced to hide in the corner, she was with the eyes of the flow of people, eyes swept toward me See is disgusted, as I pour out a pot of cold water, sitting in the corner I feel never had loneliness. But I do not blame her, is my own live too embarrassed.
I met with the University of China, I have a boyfriend, two people are surprisingly ordinary, life will be submerged in the crowd of the kind, I do not love the so-called ex-boyfriend, I as much as possible to find a reason to avoid dating , As to why to be with him, that time I think I may not have a better choice.
Until the emergence of Jacob, she suddenly split me a new life of the road, that kind of different excitement so I found the excitement of life.
Ya is gay, she finds me too, yes, we are women, we are very natural, just as heterosexual. We do not like the general men and women, consider each other in the value of marriage, she told me love between the same sex with intuition.
We met in the film elective class, she sat next to me, that day is the Iranian director Abbas film "raw flow", she said to me, "I have long seen this movie, especially like Aba "I said," I am also. "We started privately for the discussion of the film and Abbas. I have never been so smooth with the natural and in-depth discussion, I and Ya language and ideological fit really touched the mind, the kind of spirit of the United States and more love.
But I was not so disgusted man, I may be a lot of people say that sentence, "Everyone has a broken heart in the heart." And I was ya all the way to push up, but I have not to go, only in the outlet Hold her tightly.
Because she was eager to get rid of all kinds of shackles, bent on going abroad, she begged me to join her. I am different from her, my family is very general, the British tuition and expensive, but fortunately that year old house to catch up with the relocation, I was lucky for their own incredible. But after going abroad, the language can not keep up, academic backwardness, and even each time and Ya kiss, I feel ashamed of their parents.
And ya since the departure of the homeland, really like to break free of the cage eagle, free to wings, leaving me one fell into the deeper valley to look at her.
Ya's excellent affinity, friends of various countries have, often invited to the party, she can be called on the Party Queen, and life of the heat to enrich, but I sometimes want to give her a meal, she threatened no time The
She is gorgeous and rich, and I just want to live well.
Around the students often travel, at first Ya and I suggested several times, but I let her and other friends together, and I turn off the phone at home, but in reality just because do not want to see friends circle, Can not remember English words. I did not want to go to Bath, look at the Roman baths, go to the Scottish Highlands on foot, see the magnificent days. But I really have the distress, out of self-esteem, and do not want to let me pay for me.
I and I have no longer close, Ya has always wanted to move out of our rental, I can only beg for her, to her mercy on me, I go all the way to come to this cold moldy foreign country, here in addition to her I have nothing, she must not be here to leave me.
I and the last time embracing and sleep, is seen after the movie "return", the two people are clinging to read the whole movie, the film Chen Daoming and Gong Li were pulled, respectively, only across the scene so that we Almost cried out of breath. We sigh in the mountains of the motherland thirty thousand mountains and rivers in the interpretation of the dynasty rise and decline, and within the inch is the whole nation every person's joys and sorrows. Times precarious, human fate is, even if there is love, but the love of the sea, the sea can not be flat. The times to blame the fate of the wrong, and the fate of the wrong throw the times, the last person was hit by heavy pressure. Or the history of the wound has never been used to watch, the warmth of human nature is the film in the two of their affection as if the epic of the times, should be the phrase, "If the affection is a tragedy, I will be written to death sentence. "
And living in peace and material abundance of our age, ordinary love has long been empty, we are eager to be loved and chase. When I was willing to wash your hand for the soup and feel self-moved when she laughed my old age, and I laughed her frivolous. We are like two times as difficult to have another intersection.