Very rarely in life do you have a conversation with a new person that changes your future.

Very rarely.

True synergy is quite a rare experience and although I have moments of synergy with many different types of people, it's rare for me to find a deep level of synergy with others. But sometimes it happens and last night it did.

Last night I spoke to @surpassinggoogle and the part of the conversation that really inspired me revolved around suffering, abuse and outcomes. @surpassinggoogle inspired me to a great degree with this one insight. This is what he said:

When one experiences abuse of the extreme kind, there are really only two paths for the future:

You become extremely cruel

or
You become extremely loving

Then he went on to say,

I have chosen to become extremely loving.

This kind of blew me away, mainly because I'm still full of anger, although I know that on the other side of this constant anger lies acceptance and unconditional love. I have glimpses of it, but it is ungraspable at the moment. And it's important to note that when the word, 'loving' is used, I am using it to mean the kind of loving nature that is detached from possession. I am referring to the kind of unconditional love that is necessary to develop inside of us, in order to transform ourselves and our society. It's the kind that great leaders possess, like Vandana Shiva, and so many others who have shown me what's it's like to live without fear. It is truly the opposite of fear. This is where I believe I have been trying to get to, but I'm not quite there yet. But I can recognize it when I feel it in others. There are very few humans who possess this characteristic. They are rare gems. Attachment based on personal gain is almost hard-wired in humans. When you find one who doesn't have this dominant trait, it means this is a special human. These kinds of humans can help many people.

Speaking with @surpassinggoogle was like receiving a much-needed energy infusion for my soul. And I know that sounds corny, but it's what happened. And to be honest, I cannot even remember the last time I felt like that. It might be almost 9 years ago. So in a way, I've been wearing a no-feel vest for the better part of a decade, shielding myself from contact with others who could potentially have a positive effect on me.

It's strange what can happen once you decide to return to a place where you realize you don't know anything.

After I got off the phone, I saw a small plant growing in a field of dead asphalt.

The sun, I think is getting nearer.

Sometimes it's necessary to pay attention to the things that are whispering because those are the things that feel good to your ears.

And I will leave you with a quote, my favorite one from Arthur Rimbaud:

"I have researched the magic shapes of the happiness no one escapes."

If you didn't know already, @surpassinggoogle invented the concept of the #Steemgig, which has the potential to disrupt Fiverr. I'll be working with him on this project now, bringing it more exposure through Hackernoon, here and as many other places as possible.

The factory I first conceived of last year is looking like it will be built afterall. A big shoutout also to @timcliff who has the community's back. I depend on you to help us all along. Thank you.