As most of you are aware I have Cancer and am losing the fight. Myself and my love @lynncoyle1 are forever grateful to all our connections and friends at Steemit. I have to say that she is always trying to help people here and has become very engaged. Myself due to my health has trouble concentrating even living. Today was the first day that everything was beyond my comprehension. The pain, the anger and the overall hating life which I never thought would happen. As you know my life is my wife and I love her like no tomorrow. But today I ended up actually so miserable that I was mean to all around me including my soulmate. Does one just choose to end it on there own. Do you try to keep fighting? These are things that for the first time I see no clear answer. If on my own the pain ends sooner and the sadness is the same for everyone around you but they get to start livingand the healing starts faster. Today was the hardest day yet as all the other issues come out from the pain. You realize amd I a burden? Am I better to let her get on with a life with none of this? The money costs to fight this is incredible. I live on a crappy pension now and feel so useless, so poor, and nothing but a burden. You know the love we have if you have read my blog but when and where does it end?
I actually want to fight but like any person I need to think about those affected by MY cancer, my illness.
Anyway Thank You Steemit for allowing me to vent......Takes the stress away at times............
Hugs and remember to
LIVE, LOVE AND LAUGH.....
I do not even think I can write my poetry anymore.......
Anyway thank you Steemit as I can vent and I care about all the people here