Date: November 26, 2017
Time: 2:45 PM, Philippine time... Bye for now...

I want to make you,

smile...
hug you...
smell you...
take care of you...
but it's too late...

I am really sorry, I don't have enough money to buy a plane ticket...
Mahal na mahal kita nanay ko...

I want to leave, but I don't know how...
I want to shout!
I want to jump in a very high place to feel the Air!

I am really sorry... I have nothing to offer you... I am sorry I can't go back to the Philippines... I am sorry I can't hug you... I am sorry I'm not on your side in your last breath... I am trying to push to gather some money for my ticket. But it's hard for me to do that...

I can't stop crying... Tears still going... Blaming my self always... Blaming that I did not take care of you a lot while I am there. But I know, that you know I need to work outside to have money to support...

Gustong gusto ko umuwi ng Pilipinas, ngunit wala talaga akong magawa... Wala akong kakayahan... Alam ko, dinadaya lang ako ng mga tiyahin ko para di ako mag alala at malungkot ng sobra, ngunit huli na. Nasabi na sa akin ng mga pinsan ko. Alam ko na pumanaw na sya...

I love you nanay...

My Mother last message to me before I left...

Whatever happened to me, don't come back to the Philippines...

But I can't promise that nanay... If have a chance I will come back to see you...