My Ulog-Quote: "Comfort is an Experience Killer."

When you live in comfort why would you want to change it, right? Not in the sense that one is swimming-in-money-comfort, but the sense that you are in a bubble of ease and you don't want any problem anywhere.

When you live easily with a carefree life, you don't want anyone to bother you. You don't want to change and experience hardships. You don't want to struggle because hey, you're in your comfort zone! You feel good in your comfortable life, lifestyle, job, relationship, family etc...

And then suddenly there is a chance to change. There is a change that needs to happen in order to improve your life, your career, your relationship, etc. But this change is not comfortable... It is not in your comfort zone at all. You don't know what will happen. You might fail, you might lose, you might break your heart or finances.

They say if your dreams do not scare you they are not big enough. Oh so does this mean I am embarking on a life-changing step if I submit that something I have to submit? Haha. What if I pass? What then?

If I fail then I will continue living this "comfortable lifestyle." I would be able to do something else, take a different path. But if I pass, what then? It will not be comfortable, I might even enjoy the ride... But, it is scary. Not the monster kind scary. This is making me anxious. 😂

I did apply to write for a certain site and I want it for the experience but now I'm anxious. Haha. And so my brain remembered what I have known for a few years now...

Yes, that is my Ulog-quote. Finally my brain came up with a quote I previously came up with. I thought of it several years ago because of a family member. This family member was so averse to changing some everyday life activity even when they need to change for the better. That's why I thought of it.

When you are living a "good" life, you will not want to get out of it at all even when the things "outside" are so much better.

I am in that moment when somehow it feels like I'm paralyzed. I don't want to do this thing as it might make me uncomfortable. Or maybe this is analysis paralysis again. Heck I'm probably just procrastinating and sharing this with the world. Haha.

I put myself in this situation and here I am overthinking. Here I am not even writing one word of the article sample they asked of me since yesterday. Well they didn't give me a deadline so that's good. Lol. Maybe I should submit an old file I wrote instead so I won't be this anxious. 😂

Fudge.

But it should be a new one. One that I would like published to hundreds or maybe thousands of viewers. Of course it's not going to be published... maybe. It's just part of the assessment. 😥

It's not like it's Steemit ya'll where I can just write whatever. It's not like a contest where there is a theme or something. It's not like it will earn me money. 😂 Heck if it was like Steemit I wouldn't be anxious at all.

It's not that prestigious a site I think, oh but why this feeling? 😂 It's not scary-bad, it's scary-good. If that makes sense.

Ah self-pressure. Ah to hide behind the limelight. Ah to be unknown or anonymous.

Perhaps because I have written this I will be able to write something to submit later on... Or tomorrow... Or next week. 😓😅

Oh who knows, maybe this whole line of thinking will be all for naught later on. Maybe I will get to study abroad or just completely disappear online. _{Hahaha. Like I can. Not when I'm addicted to the internet. 😂}

_{Ang chufal lang siguro ng fezlak ko, nag-apply ako tas ngayon nakuuu. 😂😩🙄😣}

Ah life. Here's to living in my head. 🎉🥂🍻🍺

XOXO,
@artgirl

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