Introduction Video to Insomnia & its affects
Video Source on Youtube
1Ulog Entry #1
First off let me introduce my self I am @veteranforcrypto I am a disabled Us Army veteran, I started my steemit journey to try and log my road of struggles with PTSD. Dont want to make this TLDR about my entry's have a look for your self on my page 😂 that is a lot of catching up lol. So to the present I have been struggling to get content out for sometime due to medication changes and have really been struggling to open my shell again well here goes, also HUGE thanks to @derangedvisions for showing me a place and community I could get my day off my chest because god knows I have daily struggles.
My biggest issue recently has been my physical health, which after years of depression and isolation due to my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Recently its been my insomnia that has been eating away at my mind and my mental strength. The issues I deal with are harsh enough let alone lack of sleep thrown in the mix. I go to bed at 9-9:30 (3 kids so bed is early) and wake up between 12:30-1:30 am everyday so that's 21 hour days if I don't get a couple hours nap. Anybody that knows anything about the human body knows after so long of sleep deprivation it begins to break you down. Recently, I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and have been on my machine for almost 2 months now and all the sudden my seal keeps getting jacked up and waking me up on top off my insomnia fits. Quite frankly it has me pretty down today because its seeming that there may be no hope for my sleep and in turn for me. 21 hours a day of isolation sucks when your family sleeps for 8 hours of it. Understandably haha wish I was 😂😂. Today it helped me make the decision on my first Ulog entry though so that's a positive way to look at it along with a nap hehe. But, it affects my family mostly my wife who is my caregiver, she is a rock and the only reason I am here. This community is gonna be perfect for her I believe when she gets her #steemit account. The guilt from the torture I feel I give them makes me drown in sorrow on the inside but yet I show that thick boulder like skin 24/7 as that's what fathers do. That's how I was raised. I feel i'm pushing the TLDR point so I am gonna end this entry with this.
I really don't know what more to say except I had to get this out to someone, even with doubts of the presentation from brain to type. Stories for another day. I guess if you take anything from this take this that insomnia is no joke and nothing to play with. Seek help if you suffer it from you doctor. In case you didn't check out the video above for more information of what happens in a cycle of insomnia.
Ps. I want to thank @maverickinvictus for the work he does on the Steemgigs Witness (which got my vote💪💪) and I also want to thank @surpassinggoogle for giving me this opportunity and from what I am seeing a lot of other people here on the platform and I look forward to getting to know as many of you as I can. Along with opening my book I call life to you all. 😎
Thanks for reading
