If you are physically sick it'll be covered. But mind! It doesn't recover. How depressed! There's a pressure on the left side of the chest! Feels like some stones are tied. An unknown feeling. Human minds are wonder. Make dreams about what never happened. Imagine a house obstructs. It wants to delete the previous mistakes, and start over again. These are just thoughts, it can not be happening in real.
I'm talking, I'm dreaming, I'm thinking of losing myself. I'm laughing, got angry, reacting on his comments. I am playing the game with myself. He also have the dark world, is it like me? Or am I the only worst. I'm floating in the middle. Beloved is a very bad thing. Being emotional is even worse.
Nowadays, my days are spent in sleep, and night is spent in the virtual world. Real life doesn't suit me. I forgot about the pictures of the walls in my house, not seen for a long time. The clothes are not tidy up. Diary is not written also.
I love to write, it helps to decrease pressure of mind. When I was in school, I used to write a lot. After writing I make it hidden. Occasionally I opened and read it. But I was soon banned to write. They didn't like my writings. I accepted. Because I did not want turmoil. I wanted a little peace in return for everything. I did not even get it and lost all in the middle. What could be the biggest achievement of a girl? Now everyone questions me. Answer: I'm speechless.
Today there was a popular person in our hangout, @fxshajol. He is very popular in the YouTube world. He contributed in steemit too. Many people got information about steemit from him. Hopefully, he will be stand with Steemitbd in the future, give support to steemian as always.
This night we was also making fun in server. We all chatted together. Now talk of the town is byteball. I got little token, according to my eligibility. Anyways if anyone needs bytes for registration, feel free to knock me. And I'll help you in the next step. And you can exchange bytes by steem/sbd from me.
I can't write more. Feeling so sleepy, it's done to awake in the night, now it turn to sleep in the day. Today someone already sleeping. I'm writing an article lying down. Because I have to post.
Lastly I want to Thank @Zaku for beautiful footer as a gift. If any of my friends need such kind of footer for free, do not hesitate to ask @Zaku
