This past year I dove into the space of ego and emotions as I was seeing myself preventing the life I wanted to peruse. There were many circumstances that I wanted to take action in a particular way but the fear, anger, pride, and guilt was playing a huge role in my decision making.
How was I preventing the life I wanted??
Fear was making my decisions when I wanted to approach new people in public. Even my huge desire to be social and network was not enough to break out of this emotion completely.
Anger was jeopardizing my reputation by believing the world should work in the way I want, instead of taking responsibility for what happens and accept it.
Pride was not allowing my relationships to prosper because I always wanted to have an answer or rebuttal. Pride also prevented me to pursue more education as I believed I can do it on my own.
Guilt was pushing me into situations I did not want to be apart of and thus not shaping the life I really wanted.
Do you see how each one of these emotions connected to ego can shape your life without you wanting to even have that happen?!?
It is astonishing to me. I started to realize how this was happening in ever aspect of my life. I will give you another example I realized just after I started to indulge in this subject this past year.
You decide you are going to jump off a small cliff into a lake. The jump is small and safe. You know you can do it, you will be fine and you came here to do it. You stand on the edge and procrastinate for as long as you can, until you decide you will not do it. Fear has just dictated what you should do in your decisions. Once this happens anywhere, when the same feelings return, you have a high chance of the same outcome repeating itself, QUITTING
This can apply to any simple situation. Even writing a test.
What we must do, is understand the EGO, our emotions that move us in many directions, and then control them! Make decisions based on facts and planning.
These emotions can all be trigger when you think you are special in this world. You are not! Nobody is better then the next, we all have the same tools in this world.
Do not think you are smart! When you believe this, why would you continue to pursue knowledge and expanding your mind?? You are smart enough in your mind!